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Wednesday, December 31

Clockstopper.

If the world stood still for just once in my life, i'd take that opportunity and sleep, forever.

The start of the new term was rather subdued, though I know i'm going to bite my words. Well, everyone knows that the first week of school is just 'filler' time for the arrival of what i'd like to call an 'assignment avalanche' in the upcoming weeks. Shivers.

I have come to accept that my body clock will never ever return to normal, anytime soon. That said, this actually is beneficial for me, the routine of sleeping at 6 p.m. and waking up at midnight everyday; I get to do most of my work while I catch up on late-night television and supper, and then when everything's done I can just go ahead and prepare for school at around 5. Though I do get a little sleepy during school (especially for lessons in the late evening).

So far, there are no signs of any crazy 120 feet-esqe styled assignments. Joon Kiat was bearable, and so was Chevady and Herman. Today, i'm supposed to come to school for Subrina's lesson (it's a half day) and show her what I did with my sketchbook but I didn't (lol). I guess I regret taking that 'short 5 minute nap' before school. Sigh.

Well, that is it. Putri and Aman are coming over later so I better get ready. And oh yeah, today is the last day of the year.

--wan.

Labels: my world, school

posted at 13:39

Saturday, December 27

Endgame.

I just bid adieu to my holidays, they are going off for a 1 month vacation to Timbuktu and will only return once i'm stressed out with whatever school has to throw at me, which is like next February. If that paragraph made sense to you then you should be very wary of your mental health.

Anyways, I am yet to complete the assignments that i'm supposed to complete (stop clucking that tongue or it'll fall out) so yes, officially, i'm screwed. The Christmas holidays were great for a fact that I finally got to sleep again. Being home alone was sensational (note my sarcasm), since mom was staying at Uncle Is's I had the whole place to myself. So, I took the opportunity of not having the standard 'wake-up-at-7' rule to sleep in really, really late. Just today, I woke up at 2 in the afternoon. You bet it felt good.

It's been a long while since i've chatted with the others back in Richmond. I heard the junior ice-hockey season just started there so i'll bet their all having fun. Putri if you're reading this, please get that webcam of yours a.s.a.p, (or Sam get her one, haha) I need someone to videoconference with (since something is wrong with our iChat accounts). Although, since were talking to Radenni-denni again probably i'll disturb him.

Yawns, I need to get my body clock in check (remember something about my body clock being evil?). Cheers for one more Sunday!

--wan.

Labels: lazy, missing people, my world

posted at 23:36

Thursday, December 25

Resolution solution.

So, the time has come once again to think of those dastardly always-be-forgotten-in-the-end new year's resolutions. It scares me how fast time has flown since....umm, January 08'. I don't really know what resolutions I want for myself next year (except for being sane and happy, of course) so I looked at the ones I made 12 months ago because to tell myself the truth, i've really forgotten about them.

Lookey here, but don't laugh.

Blog entry dated 11 January 2008.
Click here to enlarge.

Okay okay yeah. I was surprised that first and foremost, I actually had gained myself at least 10 kilos, so heck yeah, thats one resolution down. Now...I don't know what sort of resolution number 2 is, but in the end I didn't want a Wii, but I did get a DS lite so, hoorah, thats counted as a 'check'. Then theres the third one. Hmm, it's Tri who usually feeds all the animals in the pond but...hey, Miko didn't die, he's still alive and well, so whohoo, thats a checkmate, im cleared, I won, i've fulfilled all of 08's resolutions! Haha, i'm so pleased with myself right now.

Brief moment of high ecstacy right there.

Anyway, since I have been somewhat disgruntled about stuff lately I think my one and only resolution for the big 09' is to be happy. I have to stop kidding myself. Who's the one who said new year resolutions were cliche anyways?

Okay okay, I have to get ready soon, i'm meeting Putri and Sam and Aman and maybe Denni at Eastpoint. So...

To all of you Christians and believers out there, Marcus, Charlie and Grinch (I mean Corrine) wishes you a very merry Christmas!

Don't get too drunk!

--wan.

Labels: celebrations, my world

posted at 14:03

Wednesday, December 24

Wolverine.

X-Men Origins: Wolverine (2009)

Pause my song on the bottom-right.

Hawt diggety dawg, Gambit (my all time favourite mutant in the whole multiverse) and Deadpool are gonna' be in it. Movie comes out 01.05.09. Watch out for it.

--wan.

Labels: movies

posted at 13:30

Tuesday, December 23

Home and away.

Monday. I just got home after staying at Dad's place for 3 days. I really had a great time there; it was good that he was able to stay in Singapore over the holidays, unlike last year. We pretty much did the usual father-son routine; dialed brunches, dinners at Ponderosa, and take-away pizza suppers, the works. On Saturday we paid Sobo and Grandpa a visit at Uncle Arthur's. Their house was lavishly decorated with silver and neon pink; Aunt Li Yi's idea of a platinum Christmas, no doubt. Sobo made her killer rice cakes which were just killer. I hate missing out on all of the stuff happening at the other end of the family tree, though it would be weird seeing me at Wednesday's Christmas eve dinner as i've never been to one of those (though I get all the gifts, haha).

Watching soccer with Dad was just priceless; it's just one of the things I miss the most about not living with him. The lions really disappointed us, haha. Another thing was the movies. I've also managed to catch some of the films that i've missed on Blu-ray (Indiana Jones 4, Wanted, watched Iron Man again), films I would've been able to watch if not for school. Anyway, all in all, it was great fun.

So after getting a few hours of shut eye at home it was back to school for the 'big', 'nasty' Ergonomics test. Feh, thats about it.

Today was fun. Putri, Sam and me (by the way Sam is Put's boyfriend) had initially planned to watch either Twillight or Bolt (or Plaza Sing's GV Surprise screening movie @ 7) but we ended up staying at Nyai's where Sam met the family for the very first time. Good on ya mate, hehe.

I don't feel like doing any of the assignments, so I won't. Yawns, tomorrow I hope I can wake up early to get started on the beef marinade. I miss chopping up stuff.

--wan.

Labels: back home from going off somewhere, my world

posted at 22:36

Friday, December 19

Glitz.

Alumni Night 2008 was fun. I'll update with a real entry soon. Stay tuned for pictures.

(EDIT: 10:55 PM DECEMBER 22)

Okay, so here's what happened last Thursday. I finally mustered up enough mojo to drag my butt down to school to help out for StageArts Alumni Night 2008. I felt kinda' bad, doing absolutely nothing at home the past few days and stuff like that, so helping out with the decorations and all of the behind the scenes work sort of helped eased my guilt. Everything was brisk; all of us helped out a bit with the decor and the props, the usual pre-performance routine. I had to do a bit of last minute, umm, rehearsals, with Hanaffi, and then I think I remembered eating a bit of KFC.

Well, it must've been nerve-wrecking for the year 2's; a bit of background info, Alumni Night is the night during which current year 3 committee members, including the current line-up of heads for the respective CCAs as well as the organization's leaders, pass on their roles to the year 2's. So, we all had our different opinions on who would get the said roles, especially that of Drama Head and President (club politics, meow).

Anyway, the plays themselves were great. Good job to everyone who've put in their best efforts for such an event, yadda yadda yadda, you've put on quite a show, wooah, wooah...(i swear i don't know where that came from).

So, after all the gayness and hot model struts and games and such, the moment everyone had been waiting for finally came. Congratulations to Kaye and Ilham, for getting the roles of Drama Head and Assistant Drama Head respectfully. And kudos to Yatassha and Liyana (Yana sexy) for bagging the Club President and Vice-President (or assistant President?) positions. Were all rooting for you guys, and good luck for the upcoming year!

And i'll have another entry soon. Pictures on the left!

p.s. what happened on that night is to remain on that night. Haha, whatever that meant, but SHUDDDUP AMA (laughs).

--wan.

Labels: anticipation, drama

posted at 13:07

Sunday, December 14

In repair.

After weeks and weeks of pressure, tension, earthquakes and tsunamis, the holidays are finally here. I am god dang relieved that I was able to complete most of my final deadlined assignments during the last week of term. Now, with school off the list of things that makes my life miserable I can finally get some shut eye (haha).

Last Friday went by in a blur. I remembered telling myself its not just worth sacrificing my sanity (or what's left of it) for better grades, so in the end I chose not to redo the final abstract eye painting. Though I can tell you that I regret not a single bit of it; I managed to catch about 2 hours plus time of sleep and it really showed when I came to school Friday morning. Well, basically all of us were in high spirits, awaiting the so-near-yet-so-far 2 week Christmas break.

We had a short field trip to the Singapore Arts Museum (SAM) during Subrina's lesson. I was glad that most of us were noticeably happier. There were a lot of cool Japanese-y stuff being put up for display, so it was a really interesting exhibit.

At 3pm we had our Design History test (we were back in school by 2 plus). I didn't even bother to properly revise for it (as it was an open-booked test) though I am not exactly confident I was able to bullcrap my way through all of it.

It was like the release of all the caged up butterflies from my stomach. When that final lesson was over and done with, I practically thanked god and angel Megan out loud for seeing me through all of this. It definitely was tough, especially with other obstacles blocking my path towards a succesful term completion (yes, that is the way I see things).

Now, I am truly, truly sorry to whoever I've let down in the quest of conquering all of these vultures; I really had no time for CCA and family and friends, but I will try to make up all for all of the lost time during the holidays.

I can't wait for this Friday; im finally going to see Dad once again, and Sobo and Grandpa, so yeah, thats all that im looking forward to this week.

Plus all of the food im gonna' get to cook again.

p.s. and yes, i've updated my blog skin, and no, I am not a 'yellow yellow dirty fellow'.

--wan.

Labels: celebrations, my world, school

posted at 18:36

Friday, December 12

Tangled.

My life is in shambles right now. There are things happening to me that I do not want to talk about so just pretend everything is alright and I won't have to lie.

I just wasted 5 hours of my life (during which I could've seen the completion of Mr Ng's final assignment as well as that pop-up card) waiting for my mom to come home from some meeting. Thankfully I had something to keep me occupied; my pencils and sketchbook. One of the more memorable daydreams I had was the thought of myself lying on a pillow in the middle of a bridge, with this violinist entertaining me with some melodramatic tune. It made me think quite far, perplexing as it sounds.

Dad accompanied me while I was sketching the pillows. It has been more than a month since I last heard his voice, and well, just cut out all of the stuff that has been happening lately and all that, and I can tell you that I really miss him. I really had no time in my life to just give him a simple call, to ask how he's been, whats been going on on. Imagine what it might have sounded like to him, "I couldn't reply to your messages these few days cos' I didn't pay my bill." Oh God. I also felt kinda' guilty when I asked him how he was, hearing him reply "finally you asked" in a mock-casual sorta' laugh. He has been very patient with life too as of late, what with financial concerns (to say the least) as well as that recent knee operation to recover from (I was aghast after finding out he had to even absent himself for 3 whole weeks just to attend physiotherapy sessions), I really wish his walk will get back to normal soon.

He understands why I have been so busy lately, and that is what hurts me the most though.

Right now everything and everything about school is making me feel uncomfortable. I have not slept in 48hours, but I plan to do so soon. I am just going to have to tell Mr. Ng what needs to be told. After Friday, trust me, I will be a much happier man, in more ways than one. I need time to get myself in check.

There are worse things in life.

p.s. when I yawn because im sleepy I tend to tear a lot, so its not me crying, period.

--wan.

Labels: father, problems with sleep, school

posted at 00:22

Sunday, December 7

Crossroads.

questions_____answers.

Doubt.

Never ending doubt.

Turning into an incessant beat. . . . .

Thumping against the barrier of sense.. .. .. .. ..

Bruising the mind.. .... ..... ... ... .. .. .

Hurting the soul. . ... . .. .

Till what's left is none

(I sort of scribbled this quickie down during last Tuesday's assessment, it was purely a mind-to-pen thing...)

Countless times i've pondered upon the concept of amorality, and whether or not to adhere to such a concept. In life, decisions are backed by sturdy beliefs and morals. But, what if everything needed to back that decision up becomes void? What happens when ethics fail to create a secure foundation to base our decisions upon?

Maybe, just maybe, i'll figure it out. Soon enough.

As for now, i'll remain terrified of flying saucer-shaped buildings.

--wan.

Labels: father, mother, you don't have to understand this

posted at 23:47

Thursday, December 4

I. C. N. S.

Funny phrases from a Typography lesson...

- "Does anyone have extra eyes (I's) to give me ?"

- "Eh, Ama, your ass (S) damn nice, can I cut and use for my hair?"

- "I need an 'X' !!!"

reply:

"Sorry, were not allowed to bring weapons to school."

- "AAH, my ass (S) too big siaa!

reply:

"Don't show off lah."

The stress takes a toll I guess.

--wan.

Labels: friends, funny

posted at 22:58

Tuesday, December 2

Wet.

As of today, a huge burden has been lifted off my chest (or hands). I would have never imagined being able to complete such a daunting and tedious (did I say daunting?) task but in the end we all pulled through.

Talk about morning rush. It was like some amazing race challenge but instead of Phil waiting for us at the pit stop, there was Joon Kiat. Let's just stop right there. Assessment was a killer for our nerves; most of us were so neurotically perky about everything that it was quite reality tv-worthy.

It was frustating as hell when JK had to question the integrity of my final assignment. What outright disrespect for all the sweat and tears I had put into this thing, you had no idea how demoralizing it was for me to have to prove that everything was genuine. Though I am sick to the core at the prospect of how he would grade me I still am relieved that I can just look back on this.

Herman's lesson was relaxed as usual. Jokes and laughter aside, it was definitely not a total waste of time as I did managed to play around with colour schemes (of the iPod skin design assignment) and stuff like that. After a short but hectic day, we were all relieved to go home.

Wow. The evening thunderstorm really summed up how my emotions have been the past couple of weeks. Going home with a 4 feet long banner was definitely a challenge. In the end, my assignment got wet, and I had to put Putri to work again with her miracle blowdryer of wonders.

Sighs. I just hope that like the rain, something good comes out from all of this.

--wan.

Labels: rain, school

posted at 22:22

Monday, December 1

Ina.

You turn eighteen today. Happy birthday, my Bella of Tampines.

--wan.

Labels: birthdays

posted at 00:00