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Wednesday, October 29

Art trip.

Well, the other thing that happened on Wednesday was the class trip to the Singapore Biennale. After Subrina's morning lesson, we all made our way by bus to the old subordinate courts (correct me if im wrong). I am way too tired to explain what happened in detail, so let the pictures do the talking. Find more snapshots at the mini-slideshow to the right.

--wan.

Labels: school, trips

posted at 23:55

Sorry.

When words fail, the pen takes over. Or in this case, the keyboard does...

Wow. First and foremost, I would like to apologize to all of my stage arters for being such a fcuktard tonight. I definitely was, so don't console me on that (haha). Okay. Statement 1. It's peculiar how the human brain works, how my brain works. Well, I for one hate the fact that some of my emotions just seem to be locked up, for good. It makes me feel weak, being unable to feel, unable to cry. At one point in my life, I started to welcome this bizzare anomaly as a blessing; ignorance is bliss, as you may like it. But I just realised, only today, that sometimes, ignorance is just bliss in disguise.

Statement 2. It is also wonderfully intruiging how God carries out his plans. For today, I had experienced something so undescribably (insert unknown adjective here), to the point where it affected me so, so very deeply, till even Suma and her infectious laughter failed to make me laugh (I know, freaky). To that person who had a hand in helping me through such a revealing moment, I really can't thank you more. It is definitely a blessing in diguise. Speaking of which, a mask. Never hide behind one - ever. Because, what I just realised, false facades might offer temporary relief, but what hides underneath is what really matters.

I love my mother, and my father, equally. More than ever, and I never ever want to compromise my love for them by looking into the past. What matters is, the future is standing right in front of me. That is all I can say.

Now, finally, something lighthearted. The ability to laugh, is definitely what I love about people. The usual bus people. You all rock, as in roccck. Who knew the source of new joy can come, so easily somewhat, from maple eyes (hahaha). If not for you guys and your smiles, I would be worse than that guy in the MCR music video. Hahahaha. I laughed a bit too much at that.

Okay, so, as I end off, I apologize. I hope I don't sound too clingy and gross. I wish everyone good luck for Friday night. I want to remember. I want to feel. I want to do.

--wan.

Labels: drama, father, mother, pain, revelations

posted at 23:47

Tuesday, October 28

The shallow list.

Okay, so I just had this mindless, stupid and totally hilarious chat with Rafa and Mika. We were discussing something vile (as always) when suddenly Putri pops into our conversation and asks us about how we define the word 'sexy', and the people whom we think are (hahaha).

So I was thinking, it was definitely the time for me to come up with one of those Top 10 lists to put on my blog, because as you know, everyone in the world cares about it. Well, it was difficult at first, but once I got started the list simply goes on... Here's how I judge...

The top 5 people I don't know and have never met and will probably never meet whom I think are hot:

The women.

5. Kristen Bell
4. Kristen Kreuk
3. Jessica Alba
2. Monica Bellucci
1. Megan Fox

Others include Cassandra Ventura (Cassie), Leryn Franco, Amy Lee, Alexis Bledel, Avril Lavigne and Kristen Stewart (whats up with me and chicks named 'Kristen'?).

The men.

5. Morgan Benoit
4. Chris Evans
3. Robert Pattinson
2. Mikey Way
1. Matt Dallas

Others include Milo Ventimiglia (who looks like Mikey Way by the way), Julian Casablancas, Brian Molko, Ian Somerhalder, Chris Carrabba and Fernando Torres.

Now, I just want to add, it took aeons to find a decent picture of Robert Pattinson to link, with all the twilight, twilight, twilight nonsense here and there, argh. Anyway, that is it. Putri, I hope you're happy.

--wan.

Labels: interesting, lists

posted at 00:00

Monday, October 27

Reliving.

The undead takes over. So, on Saturday, we had our final run-through of our Halloween performances shown to the seniors. Though it wasn't our exact best, I know that all of us can do better, so keep it up guys.

After drama, the peckish amongst us headed to Pizza Hut for some serious brunching and gossip girl, x.o.x.o (Suma's new catchphrase). Haha, don't ask. The drama mamas and papas made my day; you guys make me laugh more than any MadTV or SNL skit, rock on! (Oh yeah, dang, that was also when I realized that I had left my earphones back at the room where we had our full run-throughs. Damn it. I hope somebody finds it, cos' if I have to get a new pair it would be like the third one in less than 2 months. Sigh.).

Sunday was a blast. Since I had promised Sabrina a date, we decided to go out for a bit of reminiscious rendezvous. So, we headed down to Lido Orchard for some reel-watching. After booking tickets for The Coffin, we window-shopped a bit at the Apple store at Wheelock and checked out the new toys they had. The new macbooks were actually quite nice to look at, and I am so totally in love with the super thin nanos. After that was the usual Borders laugh session (though quite lacklustre because our favourite Yo' Momma joke book was gone). After getting our food, it was movie time.

We missed the first few minutes of the show because of all the food-related delays (we had a large coke, 2 hotdogs smeared with chili and mustard, a plate of nachos and cheese, and a bag of Twisties, all for only two people to carry to the theatre). That said, time for reviews. Script-wise, the movie was a mess. But I'd watch it solely for the 2 or 3 surprise scenes and the brilliant cinematography. Other than that, the movie left Ina and me scratching our heads. The movie made me think a bit about life. A bit only. If you are on the verge of killing yourself, I advise you from watching it. Because, everything about the movie, from the incandesent quality of lighting, combined with a grim theme, sombre cinematography, and a depressing score exudes more melancholy than an emo boy at a poetry read. Rent a DVD instead.

Other than that, I had a really great time with Ina. I missed all those times we had together, and we sure need to do this more often. And Ina, you can borrow my DS anytime you like, haha.

Oh yeah, before I forget, I want to wish Deepavali valthukal to all of my Hindu pals. Tomorrow, I am definitely going to have Briyani for lunch.

p.s. The Aku suka Orang Minyak song by Suma is stuck in my head. But heck, I don't want to get it out. Haha.

--wan.

Labels: drama, friends, movies, my world, nostalgic

posted at 19:36

Saturday, October 25

Crawl away.

I hate it the way ants come crawling into your favourite grape kool-aid every now and then. They tell you that they're hardworking, loving, and even funny (Antz, A Bugs Life), but I see right through them. What they are, are irritating, lame, and usless black bozos that just want to win everything and ruin your life.

Prologue over, for now.

Let's see, Thursday, (after Typography, where we got new assignments to do) I finally had a chance to grab a much awaited lasting peek at the ever so appraised Sunplaza Mall. Then we all went to shop and eat at Causeway Point for awhile before Woo's fun Model Making class, where we learnt how to make boxes. Trust me, it is actually a very rewarding and pleasing task. Drama on Thursday was less violent than usual, we had a go at practicing our characterization instead of all the 'physical' scenes, if you know what I mean.

And thank you for the awesome notebook, LR and Haz. Another one for my library! Haha.

Friday was a drag, though in a fun way (no, not drag queen, Amin). The new assignment for Studio Project is actually quite interesting. After a short lunch break, we got our butts down to LTQ9 for Design History. It was bearable, but only because I had like eight hours of sleep the night (and day) before. No drama, so Ama and me had a chance to ciao in the sun, for what seemed like years, hahaha.

I miss my favourite people in the world. The ones that make you laugh for a solid reason. Please, save me from this bad disaster movie, Putri, hahaha.

p.s. Drama in a few hours, big show ahead.

--wan.

Labels: drama, random, revelations, school

posted at 02:01

LOL, not.

Don't be fooled by what shines through you.

What goes all out to blandish and fool you.

What makes you join in the mirth that so blinds you.

Just wait till you realize that he's just as bad if not worse, than you do.

--wan.

Labels: revelations

posted at 01:39

Wednesday, October 22

3 days.

I am as tired as heck. I guess we all are, right? Before I start my rant, I just wanna applaud all my poly friends (as well as the others who are pursuing their 'A's) for working so, so hard. Life is heck. But dealing with problems, sadly, is part and parcle of life. Yes, I know, I suck up to people a lot.

Okay, well, the start of this week came in a hushed whisper. More like in a demonic laugh I guess (those who know, just laugh). After 1 day of rest, it was back to the same ole usual schedule.

Monday was so-so. Made boxes in Chevady's then had actual fun during Mr. Ng's drawing class, playing with watercolour effects. Halloween Night rehearsals are on every single (weekday) evening, till the big night. I have not fully felt my character, yet, no matter how much I look like one.

On Tuesday, I came in 7 minutes late for Joon Kiat's drawing class. Well, personally, I feel his disciplinary methods for us are a tad bit off. Moshi moshi, were in poly, and we have rock hard egos (well most of us). I feel it unwise to have that kind of attitude (in relation to 'discipline') around students. Yes it makes you seem high and mighty respectable but if students hate you, then of course, that would do more harm than good. Halloween Night rehearsals are getting violent. David, hang in there. And of course, happy birthday to Eunice! (drama) You rock!!

Tuesday night, frantic. Studio Project. Colour studies - another last minute assignment.

Today started off with hectic-ness and ended off in unity (drumrolls). Our SP (studio project) presentation, no matter how messy and last minute it was, turned out barely well. Good job, people. I love you. After a brief rest period (colour studies) it was back to heck, with Photography class, the submission of the SP cd, and drama. And I managed to squeeze everything within a few hours. Klappa klappa for me. One thing I would like to add, I do pity you, Mr. Ayob, really, for being so misinformed. Agreed, first impressions leave quite a huge mark, but obviously, what you see in my character is doubtfully, untrue. So please, bug me, not ever again, I hope. Affirmation: I can suck up to people, yes, but only up to a certain extent--.

Wow, rehearsals are indeed tiring. I do miss going back early (as in, while the sun is still out), but I guess its something I just have to live with from now on. I have been desperately trying to find the right time to research on my characterization and movement. Thanks to those whove helped me out, a lot. And thanks for the vampire teeth, David, i'll keep them wet for you good. Hahaha.

Before I go become freaky once more, I just want to acknowledge the fact that just now's (well, yesternight's, technically) daily bus wait was ullllltraaaaa draggy. Had to wait for 4o+ minutes for kandarolli's sake. Though another thing to note, Vicki and I had a lot of fun disturbing some month in the bus. Hahahaha, *evil laugh*.

Later, I am going to give myself a treat and sleep early. I hope tomorrow the stress wears off a bit. Adios, alibaba.

p.s. thanks for keeping my file, July!

--wan.

Labels: anticipation, birthdays, drama, my world, problems with sleep

posted at 23:58

Sunday, October 19

Freak on.

Staying alone at home has never been more challenging. Out of the hundreds upon hundreds of stock films available within the vaults of Mediacorp's movies-to-air-on-boring-Saturday-nights library (what, don't they have one?), the movie The Exorcist: The Beginning, was the one they chose to air on this particular Saturday night.

Then, I just happened to remember Vicki and her obssession with scary stuff. So I hooked her and July up (on IM) with some of those backmasking (playing songs backwords to reveal less than comforting, um, messages) songs we've talked about before, all posted on Youtube. Well of course you know me and my itchy ears. I was just itching to listen to Stairway to Heaven. Theres been a lot of ballyhoo going around about he-who-must-not-be-named, and his hidden messages that have been put into such songs. Either im super bored, or that its just the ego telling me to listen (because Vicki had listened to it already).

Then in the midst of a spooky conversation, my computer crashes. I was also listening to songs on my blog, and you know, when the computer crashes while audio is being played, it creates a very, very disturbing and loud hiss.

I just noticed how dark the night is. Feh. I need to rev myself up for the role of Keith, anyways. Lets just hope nothing comes flying in to say hello to Keith. I dunno how to fight badly in reality. Hoohoohoo.

Gotta remember to watch Kyle XY (season 2, Sunday's at 5, barely missed it last week, damn) later. I might be meeting Ina later to help her out with her English. Oh, just look at the time...

--wan.

Labels: my world, spook

posted at 01:28

Saturday, October 18

New leaf.

Okay. So much has happened it's crazy to leave out all the important bits. Basically, yeah, with the new school semester, comes the same old brand-new changes to life, once again.

I crashed at Dad's apartment right before school started. It was great seeing him again for the first time in a long while. I miss all the phoned dinners, the hi-fi, and everything else associated with Dad. Monday was the first time I went to school from Dad's (and yeah, the NS-MRT line is indeed longer, so congratulations, whoever that person was who debated with me me on this topic, =).

School is....well, read the previous post.

Drama is in full swing as well. There's been rehearsals every evening now. I really like our Halloween night play. Yes, it is challenging, and yes, it takes time, but its something I like, and something I want to put my effort in. Our play is awesome. It is very vampirey, and of course, I like vampirey stuff (except for pontianaks, oh god im alone now).

Yes, I am alone. At home. I guess I don't have to explain why, it's always that way with me, huh? So anyways...

Busy me is something that I like. When I have an agenda, I get into full gear. That's why I look forward to coming to school and drama everyday. Though I miss my old lazy self (it's still there I tell you), this new leaf is definitely greener than the ones on the other side.

Uhmmm, don't ask. Back to Friday...

Today was straightforward. Showed up late for the Studio Project project meeting (though not because of what you think). Had Design History at 3, 'twas funny how we chose our groups, haha. Went to Art Friend Takashimaya with VCers. Stocked up on the usual supplies, and new stuff we needed for the new projects. Ate with LR and Haz (for awhile) at KFC, because I hadn't had a bite in one whole day, then after that went visiting, the usual.

Drama later at 9, we gotta' squeeze everything in (rehearsals, fight scenes) before Anjana sees our final full run-through. I pray I wake up on time.

And I do hope people out there continue to stay nice (if not look nice) and hold on, cos' it'll make the world a better place. Okay, whats a --wan post without a mention of something food-related at the end?

I am hungry, and later I am goin to cook something big. There it is. Ciao!

--wan.

Labels: father, my world, random

posted at 00:58

New term.

School is in full swing.

Whoo-ey. Though it is tiresome to deal with all of the work, lectures, bitchiness and drama, I am happy that school is back. Yes, I really am, Rafa.

The past 5 days were quite okay. After 2 months of holiday (and after returning from Dad's place, where I stayed during my last weekend of the holiday) its back to school on the blue-est day of the week. Here's what's new and hot:

I have 2 new lecturers for Model-making (MM), Chevady and Woo. Both of whom stand out so much to me, they gotta' be a blessing from God above, in comparison to our old MM lecturer (shhh, I don't wanna say his name, AYOB). Ahh, whoops? Okay anyway, Chevady is like a Ms Swan lite, and Woo is like Vicki upsized. Hahaha, I think im going to do very well in MM this term.

In addition, we got 3 new modules and 1 module upgrade: Ergonomics, Typography, Digital Rendering and Design History.

Ergonomics is a major snore. Plus Mr Kuouo, (however you spell it it'll still sounds boring, like kwuaaahhhh) and its going to be like dreamland everytime we head over to S.305.

Typography is very interesting, though wickedly difficult. I have to look out for this one. It needs precision to do well in this module, and I don't got that.

Digital Rendering is fun. I like Illustrator and Photoshop, so no questions there.

Design History. Hmm, of course, I like theory modules, but Mr Yow's lecture makes me drowsy. Maybe its just the lighting and temperature of the LT, or it's just because of the timing.

The other modules were same old. Of course, leave it to Subrina and Lee to give us assignments on the very first lesson. Though im not complaining (that much). We got two lecturers for Drawing class too. Of course, Mr Ng, the aiyah man, is cool. Then theres Joon Kiat. Hmm. I can't help not liking something about his persona. But well, we'll see. Photography (the additional course which im so glad I got into) was cool. Please let me get a cam, ASAP.

So that's it with whats new this term. I am too lazy to end this off with something smart, so-

--wan.

Labels: my world, school

posted at 00:54

Wednesday, October 15

Oh dawd.

Oh grinch. Oh pizza. Oh mairu.

I am so tired and lazy to blog about the past 4 days. Maybe I will in another 5-days-in-one blog post. Oh yeah, school has been tiring.

Now I wanna go eat.

p.s. man, that kandarolli song is stuck in my head again.

--wan.

Labels: lazy, my world

posted at 22:00

Friday, October 10

Beautiful minds.

The culmination of weeks upon weeks of hard work. I think you guy's who've experienced just now's event know just what I mean. 1, 2, 3, sighhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss together!

Okay, here's how today went:

Well, I woke up at around half-past-six in the morning today (thanks, July and Vicki for being my alarm clocks), bathed, got decent, then met Vicki at the interchange. MRT-ed with her and Sheila De Lion (who came in at Eunos by the way) all the way to school.

So, everyone was waiting for everyone else at the club room. Had the pre-performance chitter-chatter. (Yeah, as usual, we talked about funny and random stuff, like Britney Spear's younger sister, whatsherface...) Anyway, soon it was time for us to get 'serious'. Make-up and hair for about 2 hours, thanks again to you's make-up crewers for putting up with us; they make us people look as purdy as possibly can, and by purdy for me I mean like a 'chinonek Best Denki salesman' purdy, right David? *blows raspberry*... and oh yah, THANKS AH for my sexy hairstyle, Arathi, Wawa and Andy & Weave, you you three mumu's you (haha, I hope they won't ever get to read that). Tick tock, the clock...

Ok, now, can I fast-forward a bit?, survivor my hot show is going to start soon, hahaha.

Okay okay, after the hoopla (or should I say after make-up, cause the 'hoopla' never really ends, haha!) we all got our buttocks to the sports complex (is that what you call it?) for jang-jang-jang-jang.....

One word: Woweepalooza. The people from minds were truly adorable. I don't know why we call them the less fortunate. Having not a single effing care in the world (I guess) about, how you look like, or, whether you are going to embarrass yourself in front of people, that kind of thing, coupled with the fact that you really seem to enjoy life, it's just a very, very moving thing to see (for me). I guess God gives everyone their own blessings, one way, or another.

Then, the moment we've all been waiting for came... The play, as you know it, duh, was awesome (hunble, humble). Haha. Although it wasn't perfect, I am glad that the MINDs-ers (wow, what a word) appreciated our skit, and were (more than) enthusiastic about joining in. After it ended, and after we got a short breather, it was time to boogey. Woe betide me if EVER in the world photos of our 'little' dance get shown or published somewhere. Hey but seriously, from the bottom of my broken heart: Being there and interacting with those guys actually was the best part of the day for me, it was...it was....bittersweet.

(God, I wish I am less lazy, enough to actually post photos.)

Just like that, the show ended. Well, after putting back everything (props, costumes) in the club/store room, we all ate. Me, like there's no tomorrow. Munch munch munch. Super-July and Suma brought us a beautiful cake too, for all the beautiful September babies). We all are really touched by everything being done for us (I am!). Arigatou kasih!

And before I forget, I want to say a HUGE thank you from the bottom-of-my-apparently-handle-with-care-broken-glass-heart (that should be, a song or something) to the directors of the play, July, Vicki and Hanaffi. For all the e-mails, wake-up calls, hushes and shushes, and everything in between, you guys rock my world man (Haha). For all the seniors, especially Kaye, for being so dedicated, and wanting to see our little thing succeed. You guys are da' atomic bomb! (And aww for Kaye and her little note to us guys! Ang baiiiiit mo, talaga!). And of course, a standing ovation to everyone involved in this performance. You've put on quite a show (whooooahhh...whooooahhh).

Okay, and survivor started 5 minutes ago... So ciao for now.

EDIT: Survivor starts at 11 today, bummer.

Hahaha. Snagglepuss.

--wan.

Labels: anticipation, drama

posted at 22:06

Tuesday, October 7

Smelling salt.

I don't know just how I am going to adjust to the rigours of school life once again. Yes, semester 2 starts next Monday, and judging by the timetable (released just at the perfect time to calm my spirits) for the new term, I don't think I can adjust. At all.

This narcolepsy is indeed sliding into another nightmare. Doctors say that we should have at least a week's worth of 'training our body clocks' to ensure that it will wake us up at the right time every day. I tried that last year, but apparently my body clock is evil.

Argh. Anyways, went for drama rehearsals on Monday. Everything was just peachy, our play got much better, so all in all, good job. Oh yeah, 'twas Hani's birthday too, so we celebrated at the start with some vanilla cake. And yes, never, ever, bring in any type of cake, pie, confectionery or sweets within an arm's distance of Hanaffi.

Tuesday (today) was rest day. Woke up at 1 p.m. I had to buy the groceries, because mom never has the time to cook again these days, what more bother with the groceries (yes, im staying at my house again). Got some chicken breasts, potatoes, and a couple of baguettes for making Devil's curry (got the recipe from Tri). Okay, this is a message to every spice lover out there. If you truly are a spice lover, and not just a spice lover because you think it's cool, you should arm yourself with at least a bottle's worth of Cayenne pepper. Cayenne. Have it in any spicy sauce or curry, and trust me, the result, is beyond, as in beyond, death. Ah...yeaah.

So after eating and cleaning up the mess in the kitchen, I watched the telly a bit. Chatted with dad on the phone during his tea break (wow, all those company perks), then before I knew it the doorbell rang, and mom said 'hi'. I had told her not to bring home take-away because of all the food we already had. Well, im glad that were back to our old selves. Good for us.

Oh, gotta check on the fish sitting in the oven. Were having salmon for supper. Wan out!

--wan.

Labels: drama, my world, problems with sleep

posted at 21:56

Sunday, October 5

Weekend.

This weekend was like, one whole mini-week for me.

Friday, I went over to Tri's house (where im staying now). She had to finish up an important assignment for poly (way to go, leave it till the last minute, haha) so I had to entertain Afik and Sasha (Daniel was at Nyai's). They were both hungry, so we ordered KFC. The new spicy drumlets they have were superb, I especially loved the thai-flavoured variety (drumsticks that taste like thai people, ew, sounds sick, =). After that, I just turned up the AC, and left the kiddos to their drawings. Shasha has a habit of calling me an artist, whenever I doodle something gross, just because im in design school, and that's hilarious.

In the evening, when Tri became less patient of the noise (haha, we were playing DJ), I brought the both of them down to the playground to...well, play. Haha, I thought I might have wanted to join them but there were secondary school students walking around us everywhere so I didn't want to make myself look like a fool (shut up, Tri =P).

After Tri was done (or after she had given up) with her assignment, we left the kiddos to watch Foster's on their laptop, while we ate what's left of the chicken (we got the 10 piece meal, haha). Slept like babies.

Saturday was tiring, though it always has been. Had drama rehearsals in the morning through the afternoon, for the MINDs play coming soon. We had to bring in and out the props as it was a full-dress rehearsal. Acting like a nerd is as boring as being one. I don't know, and I definitely don't see how you can find that entertaining, so, don't complain if you are not! (entertained). I absolutely loved Neela's bimbo character the most, she made me giggle worse than an eight year old girl in the presence of one of the Jonas Sisters (whoops).

Anyway, after a crazy laughter session with those who stayed back at Mac, I got home and changed. My extended family was going out to Nyai's sister's place. Wow, Nyai and her siblings create some of the best comfort dishes ever. The whole buffet had an Armenian touch to it, of course, with some Russian desserts that I had never tasted before. I basically just sat in one small corner of the house with my aunts and uncles (the kiddos were running around in the balcony) small-talking. There were so many people I didn't know, from my grand uncle's family (who were mostly those Arab types). (I heard sometime ago that they disliked my grandmother and grand aunt because Arabs are supposed to hate Armenians). Though of course, it was Eid, and we all played nice, hahahahaha.

Gosh, after all the hoopla, I found myself more than thankful of my very own bed (well, guest bed to be exact). Chatted with some people (oh my god, Neela, chatting with you makes me wanna MadTv all day, lols!) including my dad. I was kinda' surprised to see him online, so we had a quick chat before turning in (he wanted me to stay over his place tomorrow, but I can't, having rehearsals, see).

I just woke up to find Afik's face barely 2 inches away from mine. Haha. Gonna brunch soon. Wonder what im going to do later....Maybe a trip to Giant, whoohoo.

Man, I get pleased so easily,

--wan.

Labels: celebrations, drama, my world

posted at 13:15

Thursday, October 2

Change.

Lately, I have been reading up on all of my old blog entries, the ones from my old blog. Then, I realized, that after comparing them to the entries put into this new one, I felt mad. At myself. Because what I saw, were two completely different authors.

I don't know whether if it's the format of writing, the way I retell my experiences or it's just that I've probably changed as a person.

I pray that it is not the latter.

Because, you can really tell a huge difference between the personalities that wrote, well, blog entry entitled 'Metronome', February 13, and well, any of the more recent entries put into this new blog.

To me, that unseen value, a very deep and unexplainable thing, seems to be lost. This made all of my recent entries seem empty, soul-less, and a little bit immature and in your face.

Trust me, were all no Perez Hiltons or Xiaoxiaos (okay, whatever her name is). I just want to blog about my life, my experiences, me. Though it never hurts to add in a bit of other interesting miscellaneous info, though that should be done in way that relates it back to our thoughts and perceptions. Sighs. I definitely can't seem to shrug off the fact that I love my old blog much, much more than this one. Sure, theres no music, the skin or whatever you call it is lame, and etcetra, but that blog was me.

Sure, you can just tell me to 'write all of that stuff in a journal', but isn't a blog supposed to be an online journal? The final verdict is, yes, we all try too hard to impress others. I mean, who cares if you wrote a scathing review about a reality TV show in your private diary? It's the pressure of people reading your posts that make us do such stuff. Though I'm not putting down people who do this (there's a reason why celebrity bloggers are 'celebrities'), I find it way more interesting and meaningful to write about stuff that you've actually experienced and seen with your own two eyes, your thoughts, and your feelings.

Thus, I've made a pact with myself. From now on, no more preppy entries. In-your-face me is gone (I hope). Now, let's blog about the simple yet more compelling events that happen everyday, what really matters.

I do hope that part of me is still around, somewhere.

--wan.

Labels: my world, perceptions, why

posted at 14:11

On the morning of Eid.

Yesterday was such a delicious day. Being able to eat again during the day is an added bonus of course, so, as expected, I took every opportunity I had to stuff my face with all the cliched Eid food.

The dialoge in red entirely sums up my general mood during the whole day.

Me: "Tri! munch munch munch...Look, its one in the afternoon!!!...munch munch..."

Putri: "So?"

Me: "I'm EATING...munch munch...DURING THE DAY...WHOHOO!

Putri: -gives her stupid sarcastic look which she thinks is sexy- "Congrats."

So pretty much the usual stuff happened today. I was first to arrive at Nyai's, apologized and gave my Eid greetings to all my elders as usual. I had to help Nyai in the kitchen a bit, she cooked up a hell of a storm. There was Briyani steaming in a huge rice pot. Sambal goreng (fried beef and prawns in chili), Serondeng (beef floss) and Lodeh (mixed vegetables in coconut milk), all pre-cooked the night before of course, heated up in their respective giant woks. And of course, the Lontong (rice cakes), served together in chunks on a huge dish, that can't be forgotten.

The other sub-families came a little bit later. As one whole extended family, we are truly a force to be reckoned with (right, cous?). Grandchildren (me included!), running around in their best outfits, munching up all the sweets and treats (some of which I had painstakingly arranged neatly in their jars) and then running some more. Adults, having their usual updates on their lives shared amongst themselves, helping Nyai a bit with the 'backstage work', all seemingly pleased to have at least one day of rest (or NOT) this week. Maids, (I have to add them in, they're family to me) busy with all the dishes, utensils, and yes, FOOD. Celebrating with a family they've only known for a few years, enjoying the day as well, while always thinking of their own family back home, hundreds of kilometres away. It was such a good feeling to see everyone in cheerful spirits.

(Mushy part coming up.)

Superb. Out of all cultures I've experienced (and you bet I have experienced A LOT of them) THIS has got to be one of the best. I find it extremely beautiful, the warmth and joy put into realizing such an event. All the beautiful bright colours, the flickering festive lights. It really is poetic. A perfect end to a whole month's worth of soul-searching and repent. One does not need to truly enjoy Eidulfitr' to get everything good out of it. Yes, it is out of respect for what has happened in the past do we truly celebrate such an occasion, and lest not all of us forget that.

Okay. Mush over. So yeah, the day ended off well. After doing their own little Eid trips to in-laws houses, the various sub-families (all my aunts and uncles) got back together at Nyai's for another round of FOOD. Just like that. Ate for like what, the tenth time that day (?), before going home. The kiddos truly enjoyed themselves. Sad that tomorrow's a schooling day for them already. Yay for me, I have at least a few more days of r&r before the new semester begins. Burps. My stomach is getting noisier lately. Oooh, mushroom treats...

Anyways, thanks for all the Hari Raya greetings everyone. I can't wait to go out and EAT again. Hahaha, greedy much? Don't judge, a boy needs his meat. Oh yeah, I miss Rafa & Mika & Uncle on the other side of the globe. I bet they are probably having their very own little Eid party there right now. Just waiting for their usual videochat and call, hahaha.

Sighs. I have said this before so many times, in my previous blog entries (especially when I was smarter and less 'preppy', during my old blog) even to one point where I challenged its meaning as merely a simplist's method of perceiving the world, and so forth...

But I shall say it again.

Time passes by so fast.

It is a bittersweet notion. What am I but a measly human being, placed second to last on the grand scale of the universe, to judge what happens around us everyday, in such simple words?

I guess the mushy part's not over yet? That must be Shakespheare-me talking again. Heck, whatever, I love Shakespheare-me.

Okay, anyways, I had a very enjoyable time today. I miss Dad, can't remember the last time I actually spent Eid with him. Hope he is doing just fine. Okay, my stomach's getting noisy again. INSTANT TORTILLA CHIPS, ANYONE?

Hahaha.

--wan.

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posted at 00:37

Wednesday, October 1

Eid.

To everyone celebrating the end of Ramadan, here's me wishing you guys a very happy Eidulftr'. Enjoy your day, have lots of food, make up with that one uncle you've always hated and then maybe put a lethal dose of cyanide in his grape kool-aid (kidding!).

Hearing the takbir, no matter from what source, radio or television, always makes me wanna tear.

Anyway, here's me apologizing to anyone out there I might have hurt, whether intentionally or not, with my admittedly sharp words (or non-words, if you know what I mean). Hope you all take care of yourself!

Salam lebaran 2008!

--wan.

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posted at 00:48